I've tried to look inward on this, because I used to enjoy blogging so very much! It tickled me to death and simultaneously blew my mind that people actually cared what I had to say. At times, I would try to find content to make all of the readers happy because I love the fact that my little blog could provide comic relief, current event "watercooler" dialogue, encouragement, or sheer entertainment - a mental break from their stressful days. In fact, I must admit that I was filled with emotion - both happiness and sadness - when I logged into this blog today and saw my analytics. I was overcome with how many pageviews my little blog had seen every day in my absence...it was as if my faithful followers were missing me. I liken it to a puppy that waits for your return from work every single day. The minutes feel like hours, and the hours feel like days and they simply wonder if they've done something bad that made you go away. Then, when you pull into the driveway, the puppy becomes overjoyed and it's as if the absence never occured at all!
That's how my relationship is with a lot of my dear friends who live in areas that are geographically challenging for me. While we don't see each other (or even talk on the phone) as much as I'd like, and sometimes I get really sad and wonder if we're still as close as I dreamed we'd be for the rest of our lives, as soon as we do talk, everything returns to the way it was! They were just as busy as I was and they felt the same way about me! I wasn't absent from their thoughts and prayers, and they weren't absent from mine.
Another reason that my absence from blogging hangs heavy on my heart is that I've always particularly enjoyed writing. I love the power that words can have and I love how it feels to type furiously on the keyboard and see my thoughts become tangible. They become something - you can read them or you could print them and carry them with you. It's a strange sensation, but an awesome one, too. My husband's response the first time he ever read my blog was to exclaim, "Babe, you should write a book! Seriously, you have an incredible way with words." His second reaction was to pass my blog around to a friend of his who loves to read. (Are there really any better compliments in the world?) I've always been somewhat of an open book, and my life has had major struggles and major victories, just like everyone else's. I've always been open to sharing difficult parts of my story because I've always been of the belief that stories have the opportunity to save people...stories remind you that you're not alone.
In conclusion, here's my challenge to myself. I'd really like to devote more of my time to my blog - to bring it back to life again. I want to use this blog as a vehicle in which to inspire people and to make them laugh. (I'm nothing if not a trip...to the loony bin!) I want to share my big wins and big losses and I want to encourage those in my realm of influence to journey onward, no matter how hard the trip becomes.
So that's that. Stay tuned, folks!
|PS - I'm still rocking the red...and loving it! ;)|
Until next time,